Two days ago my family and I returned from a enjoyable eight day cruise to St. Maarten, St. Kitts, San Juan, Puerto Rico and Grand Turk. After the cruise, we drove down to Key West. We had a fun time on the cruise, especially Max, but Michaela and I especially enjoyed Key West. Mark was happy just to be on vacation. What a funky place Key West is. Bars and quirky shops line the streets among ethnic restaurants. I found a shop with eccentric mermaid art, and I purchased a very whimsical Mermaid wind chime. It was a good time!
Wednesday, it was back to reality with a visit to Dana Farber Cancer Institute in Boston for scans. Ugh!!!
Thursday I was back at DFCI to meet with my oncologist and discuss the scan results. The hope was the chemotherapy was stopping the cancer from progressing, and I would continue to receive Cisplatin. Mark and I did not receive the news we were looking forward to.
The past six weeks I have been feeling very weak. I am winded after climbing a flight of stairs, I stopped exercising,and everything I do is in slow motion. I knew that something was physically wrong with me. I knew what Dr. M was going to say to Mark and I. I wish I was wrong.
Dr. M came into the chilly room where Mark and I were waiting. She shook our hands and asked about our trip. We spoke about it for a bit and then came the news… The lesions on my liver continue to grow. It was determined that I have swollen lymph nodes between my lungs and some spots on my lungs are more defined. Therefore, there has been metastasis to the lungs. Oh, the news just keeps on getting better…..not!
Dr. M discussed new treatment options. After discussing two different treatment options, we mutually decided I would begin Taxol weekly. I previously took Taxol 5 years ago when I was first was diagnosed with breast cancer. I most likely wil loose my hair, but I am fine with that. I just want this beast to stop growing inside my body. No shaving for a while….I am thrilled about that!
Although I am not happy with this most current news, I do remain hopeful. Having hope helps to end fear and remain positive. I do not know what the future holds, but I will continue living each day to the fullest. I will surround myself with loving and caring family and friends and continue to travel and do all the things I love, as long as I am able to.
“You beat cancer by how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live.” Stuart Scott